some days
something makes me
feel like I’m supposed
to just digress
digress digress

some days
I seem to feel his
grave digressions
deep deep

no matter what I say
no matter what I do
switching topics
switching cities

won’t dissolve
whatever it was,
however good it was in its
fugacious existence

some days,
make me feel like
I can’t di-grieve him away
from deep inside me