Forgetamine 200

I searched too deep
I searched too far

I’m so far gone
with my selfish attempts
to know why I’m not
yours anymore

I’ve forgotten who I am
while you’re out there,
living your best life
with this boy,
your current receptacle
for your nightly pollutions

despite what I found
despite him
despite it all

I still try
to swallow that pill
the one he left,
forgetamine 200mg
it’s pale-coloured
and a little rough

but like you,
I just keep coughing it right up
it doesn’t stay and leaves
a bitter taste on my tongue