Forgetamine 200

I searched too deep, too far

I’m so far gone
my selfish attempt
to know why you’re not
I’ve forgotten who I am

meanwhile you’re out there,
living your best life with this boy
your current receptacle
for your nightly pollution

yet I’ll always be
attempting to swallow
that pill you gave me
forgetamine 200mg
pale colored
too rough

but like you,
I just keep coughing it right up
and it doesn’t stay