You Know


You know,
for a long, long time
I kept thinking about how I could
leave you, end us, move on

You know,
for a long, long time
I’ve kept thinking about how
I left you, fucked up, tried to move on

You know,
for a long, long time
I’ve kept thinking about you

I haven’t stopped thinking
about you
about how I left things

I haven’t stopped thinking
about how
your past, your trauma,
your life – even as you live it now
isn’t by choice

I haven’t stopped thinking
about how
you don’t know
what a healthy relationship is
isn’t your fault

I haven’t stopped thinking
how I’m not sure
I know what that is, either

Now I can’t stop thinking
it’s not your fault, that you
don’t know how – or what – love is

You know,
I truly worried about you
for a long, long time

You know,
that time you told me you loved me
made me sweat into a puddle

I know,
you’ll pretend I’m a stranger now
but a hurt heart never lies

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